Thursday, July 24, 2014

I am addicted....

I just realized I have an addiction...

No, its not to smoking.  Never had a cigarette even close to my mouth.

No, its not drinking.  I got slightly buzzy one time when I was in my 20's & that was enough for me to ever drink again.  I never have had more then a sip of beer in my life. Disgusting.

& no, its not to anything strange like "My Strange Addiction" on TLC...

Have you seen some of these things???



umm... that's cat fur she's eating...



It something that I realized while I'm reading a devotional called "Fit for my King"



I met the author, Sheri Shepherd at a women's conference & she was awesome. I really appreciated her because when we took our picture together, she made sure that the person taking the picture took it from above, not below, which makes a double chin effect.  Being a photographer, & her knowing this, I totally gave her props.  She is a former Miss America so girlfriend knows her angles.




Today's devotional said these words...

"I am a food addict.  The only thing I love doing more than talking is eating.  One of my greatest joys in life is food.  When I'm celebrating, I eat.  When I'm tired, I eat.  When I'm sad, I eat. When I'm anxious, I eat.  When I'm in pain, I eat.  I have spent years running to the refrigerator for refuge. And when I get hungry, my personality actually changes - from Dr. Jekyll to Mr. Hyde!"

I stopped & laughed actually because I had to check the cover & make sure this wasn't my diary.  Those words could come out of my mouth.  I am the same way. 

Every emotion?  Food comes to mind.

I totally want food when I'm stressed... when I'm happy... when EVERYTHING...


It was so eye opening to me to realize it was an addiction.

I have family members & friends who I've seen deal with other addictions & being someone who had never had a stronghold on me like they do, I've given advice.  How to walk away, how to deal with it...

& now, I need to look in the mirror.

Addiction is addiction, isn't it?

I like she suggests not bringing food into the home that tempts you.  That's a good step.

I need to find a way to get my emotional pull over food in check.  So when all those feels hit, I want something else besides food.

Addictions are struggles... I'm going to battle my own here...


Anyone else a confessed food addict?

7 comments:

  1. My church is starting a book club next week and we're reading Eat With Joy. I haven't finished it yet but I bet it would be something you'd like. Let me know if you ever want to borrow it.

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  2. Love this Rebecca. I am a food addict and it is something I have to battle with it. What is worse, I am an emotional eater but thankfully I have come to recognize the triggers and have gotten better at it.

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  3. I confess. Food addiction is hard because you still have to eat to survive. Everything revolves around food. The struggle is real. I'm trying not to reward myself with food anymore. The first thing I think when I hit a goal is "ooh what can I eat now?" I have to shut myself up and be like "No lady, go do your nails or something!" On another note, that show creeps me out. I watched one where a lady legit ate her couch. She ate all of the foam stuffing out of her couch. Hmm I wonder how many carbs are in couch cushions?
    xo Krissy @ Sneakers and Sequins

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  4. oh yes i absolutely struggle with food addiction. and ew those first few gifs - gross!

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  5. I have struggled with food addictions. When life was hard I ran to the cupboards. I like what Miss Kriss said, it's good not to reward ourselves with food but I must confess I still do that. I recently got into my Masters program and we celebrated with wine and chocolate. Fun at the time but in the long run I'm sure I'm associating food with emotions.

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    1. I think we do it without even thinking... food is just part of celebrations

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  6. I know there was a point in my life before I lost weight where I was a food addict. I ate whenever I felt like it. Just open the fridge or pantry and dug in. Nowadays I feel as though I have learned a lot and created a healthy relationship with food. I'm not saying I don't have bad days or weeks even but I am in a much better place. I hope that you can find your better place of balance Rebecca! I know you can do it!

    Btw, I haven't seen that addiction show on TLC before, but holy moly that is some...interesting...stuff to be addicted to lol.

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