Stupid head cold... I will get you...

So another day... another sniffling head... another moment of gasping for air...

head colds - sinus infections - whatever this thing is - it sucks!

Yesterday was so beautiful.

If it were an ordinary day, I would have ran home & put on some clothes & headed out for a run or walk, or whatever... just something to keep me out in the beautiful day.

Instead, I felt like I was basically sludging down the steps at work & threw myself in the car, feeling like I could barely hold my head up for the drive home.

Mercy.

But I did get a notice that Starbucks was having a buy one tea, get one free.  How can you NOT stop at Starbucks for a deal like that? 

$3.67 for two Venti's... I'll take it!

So I headed in & told myself that green tea is good for the immune system - right?  This was just medicine ... for my body & my soul...

I got home & changed clothes & just THOUGHT about working out... & was exhausted after just changing my clothes. 

Forget that.

So I took my green tea & sat outside & read a book for an hour.  Or at least read for about 15 minutes & just laid my head back for the other 45 minutes...

Ricky told me I need sleep to heal up, but I HATE trying to lay down when you can't breath.

But I did make some soup.

Soup is healthy when your sick - right?

& then I put on some Thieves on my feet & some other Essential Oils around my face to try & open up my sinuses.

I'm not great at how to use all these oils yet... obviously... or I may not have gotten sick in the first place.

Come to think of it - I've only GOTTEN sick since I started using these oils... hmmm...

anyways...

& finished my night with a Strawberry fresh fruit bar to ease my sore throat.

I'm trying all the natural things I can to try & beat this stupid thing.

I even traded in my coffee for another cup of antioxidant full tea.... with raw honey.

come on healthy things... kick in for me... QUICK!

I'm still around... just stressing out is all....

I'm still here everyone...I'm alive...

I think...

yeah, I know I'm alive because my body is making it's mark every day lately.

So, we've been doing this office move & its just as delightful as I thought it would be..

& I'm not sure if the stress of it has gotten to me & the stress of worrying about family being sick & stress of just life at the holidays or what, but I have felt so bad for the past 2 weeks.

I mean BAD!!

I mean no appetite, stomach ache, up in the middle of the night nauseated, feeling like someone is stabbing in the gut, which is always fun,  & always running to the bathroom kinda bad...

I'm hoping it's all stress...

I'm the type of person who is an admitted hypochondriac too so when I get sick & don't recover well, I literally make myself sick... & I am caught up in this right now...

I'm almost to the point where I need to make a doctor's appointment so I can spend a lot of money for them to tell me "You're fine"..

or I need a vacation to Disney... one or the other...

But wanted to drop in & let everyone know I'm still here.

Even if I am green faced & ready to dash to the bathroom at any minute....

I totally blame myself...

Yep... I knew it would happen...

as soon as I hit the word "Publish"

I read on someone's blog the other day about how she got sick right before a big race.  I commented, "I never have gotten sick before a race" & then knocked on wood.

I even said it with confidence like this

I then read another runner's blog that talked about the lovely stomach cramps during a run & how she barely made it to the bathroom.  I made a comment about how I have had stomach cramps, but they wear off & I'm fine afterwards

No... never had to run for my life with stomach cramps

... I may have forgotten to knock on wood that time.

So I'm on my treadmill - because its still like Ice Age outside my doors - & my long run only called for 3 miles (love the beginning of training season) & feeling good.  Watching a recap they played again about the Bachelor couples.  Ryan & Trista still make me believe fairy tales can come true...

Then all of a sudden, my stomach started cramping...

It'll pass.. it always does.

I had just had hummus & wheat crackers about 30 minutes before so I just explained that away & knew I'd be my old slow self any minute...

except I wasn't... I was slower.. & in PAIN

I hopped off of the treadmill & took some deep breaths... it wore off so I jumped back on.... for only about 5 minutes.

I got hot, dizzy, sweaty - but not the work out kind of sweat - the cold, something is wrong & you're getting ready to die sweat.  Then I felt nauseated & felt like I was going to loose that hummus all over my new Saucony shoes.

Kinda how I looked... except I didn't wear a dress on the treadmill

I have never ran that fast in my life jumping off the treadmill & running upstairs to get to the bathroom where I got 3 different cold wash rags & threw on my face, my neck & my wrists.

I still haven't felt right since then.

I refuse to think its some sort of flu that's getting to me...

& with that statement.. I probably just jinxed myself once again.