Something about a man who isn't afraid to cry & hug other people - I just think Chris is adorable. & I've admitted my girl crush on Heidi a zillion times.
I love Tuesdays when Extreme Weight Loss is on. & we didn't get one story - we got two.
The one that really hit me was Christy's story.
This woman was talking about her childhood & how she was bullied growing up. It was really harsh. People gave her a letter in school talking about how she didn't fit in, how she didn't have the right clothes, how she was fat & she needed to leave the school.
Kids are cruel.
& like that's an option. OK - I'll just leave this school. #stupid
All this piled on a child's shoulders - she attempted suicide. I mean, really attempted - not any of this cry for help stuff. She jumped in front of a truck on a road.... I couldn't believe her story. Broke my heart. The irony of the whole thing - they told her her weight is what saved her life. She said something about the one thing she was trying to get rid of was the one thing that wouldn't let her leave.
& the even more messed up part? Her mom totally didn't even see things the same way Christy did. She talked about the car being on black ice. Denial was all over this family.
I was ready for a life change for her. Chris calling her when she's out in a parking lot at 2 am eating fast food. He made her walk up the steps to the Stratosphere & meet him. It looked like she was going to push herself to do this...
.... & then it turned fast.
In the first 'Fight or Flight' work out, she even admitted that she is the first person to turn & run when things get hard. With Chris by her side though, he wouldn't let her. She would keep screaming "Don't bully me Chris" & I knew she had some deep seeded issues....
Because of a home situation with her mother having dementia, she couldn't stay long with the Powell's... & it didn't take long for her motivation to go downhill. Chris surprised her & did a weigh in on the spot & you could tell she was ticked off. The weigh in showed she had already gained weight & was back in the 300's....
Chris made her pack her bags & come to where he & Heidi could keep an eye on her...
The attitude she brought was awful. The lack of motivation was ridiculous. She had yelled at Chris & he told her to walk back to the gym - only like a mile. Girlfriend got a TAXI!!!!!!!!!!! Are you kidding me?
I've never seen it done before, but Chris & Heidi ended up talking with her & pretty much told her that they could see she wasn't ready for this, had no desire to change her life & sent her home...
... after wards, she even admitted to production that she set herself to fail so she could get out of doing this.
How sad is that?!?!!?
She had this amazing opportunity in front of her & she didn't want it. Threw it away. Totally sabotaged it on purpose.
All I kept thinking was here was this lady who obviously is sad in life, who tried to commit suicide once in her life, she was walking away from something good... staying in the place that left her miserable.
The other story, Kenny - was fantastic. He was a former Marine & he had the heart & fire to get the weight off. & he did it. His wife was so supportive & she was beautiful! But she reminded me so much of Heidi ... I had tweeted that & Heidi responded back to me....
@RebeccaJoKnits :) She's a sweetheart #EWLYep.. .me & Heidi are best friends now, I can just tell....
— Heidi Powell (@RealHeidiPowell) August 20, 2014
This show always encourages me, but last night, it left me just feeling so sad... for Christy. Wondering how she's doing. Wondering if she's ready to try again. Wondering if she's EVER going to be ready.
Things like that make me look at myself & say I don't want to be like that when it comes to becoming healthy....
I don't want to not try.
I don't want to sabotage myself for failure.
I don't want to ever give up on myself.
I don't want to walk away from opportunities.
I don't want to ever stop pushing myself.
I guess the story of Christy, though she failed, still inspired me....
Did you watch Extreme Makeover?
Do you have a girl crush on Heidi?
Or a crush on the adorable man that is Chris Powell?