The past weekend, I got to see some familiar faces -faces of people that I love.
One of those people I love - she has been dropping weight like Kanye drops a rude interruption on people.
She has been taking those hormone drops that have been all the rage. They are working for her. She has been shedding the weight like sweat dripping off of my back during a hard work out.
& that right there is where the honesty starts coming out.
She's shedding weight like its nothing... & I'm the one dripping sweat & having to fight food addictions & muddling through.
I'm fighting & balancing food & struggling & while I am loosing weight, its slow... & no where near the numbers she's dropping.
Internal screaming happened a lot while listening to her explain how these drops were working for her & to watch everyone just sit around & talk about how they need to get their hands on these drops & try it for themselves.
All the people are looking at her & googling & oohing & aahhing on her & saying how good she looks & asking her how she feels.
She's just like, "it just takes away cravings for food"
... that's it...
ask me what I'm doing & I'll tell you how I have to balance proteins & carbs & am limited to an amount of food during a day & working my butt off at least 30 minutes a day with one day off for rest.
If I were to tell people what I'm doing, do you think they would have that same instinct to run out & get some work out clothes & little colored containers & want to start on it instantly? ... yeah... me either
And then I see she's eating... normal foods... there's even cake around.
& I'm coming to this place drinking a protein shake so I will be semi-full & not WANT a piece of cake.
I know 12 lbs isn't much & probably not even that noticeable... but it just frustrated me so much. How easy it can be for others.... & how hard I have to work for the smallest of results.
I don't mean this to sound like a whiney post - just like I said, an honest one.
I just keep trying to think that I'm doing what I need to do for me.
I mean, I wouldn't take those hormone drops for anything in the world anyways. No offense to anyone who has or is doing them. Truly. For me, I don't trust them. They don't seem natural to me - even if people say that they ARE natural. But I'm the person who doesn't even like to take an aspirin must less take something that is supposed to curb my appetite. I'm too much of a naturalist for that.
& I know my progress is slower... but I'm making lifestyle changes. I'm learning how to adjust to this long term. I'm learning to be healthy inside & out.
So I will admit, I left that place feeling really down on myself & frustrated... but the more I thought about it, the more my mind eased up & the more I actually became proud of me.
I truly am happy for this person who has lost all her weight too... I'm sure she has her moments & her own struggles in certain areas....its all about cheering others on!
So today, if you see others & you feel frustrated & aggravated at your own progress, remember you have to do you... only you... what only works for you.
And I'll be doing me... slowly & surely....