Beginning again... with a lot on my mind.

Tell me how fast you can lose your fitness.

I mean, I feel like I had some pretty good fitness in me.... & then I didnt work out for a month & its like I am in square one.  More like, standing behind square one. Geez. My body hurts so bad from just the first day of working out.

My legs?  The muscles are so tight & they ache to even TOUCH.  What the heck?

The only thing I keep telling myself is that I've been in this spot before - & it WILL GET EASIER.  I'll keep telling myself this.  Even as I limp & moan & groan.

Really, its amazing to me to see how the body works. Especially an aging body.  How fast you do lose your fitness... how hard it is to get it back.. how painful it can be.

I just want to get it & not have to start over again.  That's the goal.

Last night's workout was the Upper Body Extreme.

My poor arms were literally shaking for an hour afterwards.  (It will be easier... it will get easier)

These flappy triceps need to get back on track here too so I love doing the upper body.

& thanking Jesus that it wasn't lower body.  With my legs as sore & painful as they were, I would have cried.

(& dreading tonight, because it is lower body)

I felt like my nutrition was pretty good for the most part.

I had a good breakfast... got some protein for a morning snack

... had a good salad full of greens & quinoa for some more protein

& then made up a Mexican bowl - black beans, tomatoes, red peppers & quinoa pasta - topped with avocado. It's delicious. I usually like to put taco sauce on top but we were out. It still tasted wonderful.

But again - I think I ate too much of it.  Lesson learned.

I'm trying not to get discouraged being at the beginning again.

Trying to get in the mind set of acceptance more than anything... & to find that motivation to turn that switch that makes it full dedication.

The first time I changed my eating & lost 40 lbs (... dang, I cant believe I've gained 17 of that back... UGHHH)... I had my mind so set on the goal, nothing swayed me. Put sweets or my favorite treats in front of me & all I saw was my goal. I need that fire in my soul like that again. I think I'm kindling it - its there more than it has been... but I need the fires to EXPLODE.

I'm also kinda frustrated because I've pulled apparently my intercostal muscle again a few weeks back.  The muscle on the bottom of my rib.  I actually was in the ER with it a few years ago because its disturbing how painful it is - & with it being so close to vital organs, like liver, pancreas, stomach, intestines.  I worry its something worst... & then after many tests, they said its a pulled muscle.  Which is crazy.  & it took FOREVER for it to heal. Apparently whenever you breath, it pulls those muscles since they are attached to the ribs so it takes awhile to heal.

I just am a worrier by nature so concerned it is those muscles again & wondering if its something more.

But I did just have blood work done for neuropathy check up - & they tested so much... 6 tubes of blood worth - so if it was something serious, that would have shown up in that, right?  .... this is me trying to convince myself all is well.

It's just literally a PAIN. A PAINFUL PAIN so its just another thorn in my side (literally) on starting over & feeling so badly.

But, say it with me.... It will get easier.

Pressing On to a new day!!!!

Look whose back... back again...Day 1 (again)

Soooooo I've been having this inner debate - all over the past 12 hours... long debate, huh?

But I have been thinking of starting this blog back up.

& I really think I want to come back here to this space in the inter-world.

Not because I have a lot of information to share, not because I have these amazing posts to do, not because I'm trying to compete with any fitness blogs out there.

I want to do this for me.

I have fallen off track the past few months... year really.  & I have to get back on track.

I have gained 17 lbs over the past few months & I'm feeling it.
Awful.  BLAH.

So I want to start this blog back up just for myself. For an online journal of sorts.  Some place to track my work outs, my nutrition, how I'm feeling - physically & emotionally.

Its going to be raw.  It's going to be honest.  It may be funny. It may be interesting. It's more than likely going to be boring... but I want to see this first post starting again & look back & say, I remember when I started again - THAT was the moment my life got back on track for good.

& I may post something that I end up sharing on my other 'main' blog as well... that's OK. Again, this is for me. No rules. No trying to compete - just want to document my life in fitness.  & I know on my other blog, it jsut doesnt fit there to do an update on workouts & nutrition like it does somewhere seperate.

So if anyone wants to follow along... feel free... but I'm not expecting many views, many comments, & I'm ok with that. But if you are following this new journey.... than give me some encouragement whenever you can.  I love me some encouragement.

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Anywaysssssss.....back to it.

Day 1

I went back & forth on what fitness routine to jump into.

I just have lost my running mojo. I know it will come back - it usually does.  But its not what is going to get me back on track.

Especially because (HONEST ALERT....) I just recently found out that I'm peritmenopausal .... another word for shriveling up & getting old.  But I've been reading about fitness in this stage of life & the main thing is strength training - get those old bones strong. Get the muscle pumped up.

So with that, I'm starting a new round of 21 Day Fix Extreme... which I've never done.  I got it & just added those videos in with running - never did the full 21 days on it.  This should be interesting.

I havent actually done ANY work outs for nearly a MONTH - GASPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

& let me tell you - I could feel it.

Day 1 is Plyo Extreme.  Jumping.

Yeahhhh -I didnt jump much

... & my quads were still shaking & cramping & feeling like they were going to give out on me.

But I made it through.

Enjoyed the sweat... feel good to do it again.

It's funny to be back with my containers & using my tracker to see what I'm eating.

But I've got my 21 Day Fix app on my phone & clocking in all the different colors I've eaten through the day.  The game is ON!!!!!

I have to note - I am really digging Subway's apples instead of chips with my veggie sandwich.... one little extra save there to get in fruit for the day & no more carbs with the chips.  Little changes makes a big different, right?

Day 1 down... let's see how day 2 goes