Beginning again... with a lot on my mind.

Tell me how fast you can lose your fitness.

I mean, I feel like I had some pretty good fitness in me.... & then I didnt work out for a month & its like I am in square one.  More like, standing behind square one. Geez. My body hurts so bad from just the first day of working out.

My legs?  The muscles are so tight & they ache to even TOUCH.  What the heck?

The only thing I keep telling myself is that I've been in this spot before - & it WILL GET EASIER.  I'll keep telling myself this.  Even as I limp & moan & groan.

Really, its amazing to me to see how the body works. Especially an aging body.  How fast you do lose your fitness... how hard it is to get it back.. how painful it can be.

I just want to get it & not have to start over again.  That's the goal.

Last night's workout was the Upper Body Extreme.

My poor arms were literally shaking for an hour afterwards.  (It will be easier... it will get easier)

These flappy triceps need to get back on track here too so I love doing the upper body.

& thanking Jesus that it wasn't lower body.  With my legs as sore & painful as they were, I would have cried.

(& dreading tonight, because it is lower body)

I felt like my nutrition was pretty good for the most part.

I had a good breakfast... got some protein for a morning snack

... had a good salad full of greens & quinoa for some more protein

& then made up a Mexican bowl - black beans, tomatoes, red peppers & quinoa pasta - topped with avocado. It's delicious. I usually like to put taco sauce on top but we were out. It still tasted wonderful.

But again - I think I ate too much of it.  Lesson learned.

I'm trying not to get discouraged being at the beginning again.

Trying to get in the mind set of acceptance more than anything... & to find that motivation to turn that switch that makes it full dedication.

The first time I changed my eating & lost 40 lbs (... dang, I cant believe I've gained 17 of that back... UGHHH)... I had my mind so set on the goal, nothing swayed me. Put sweets or my favorite treats in front of me & all I saw was my goal. I need that fire in my soul like that again. I think I'm kindling it - its there more than it has been... but I need the fires to EXPLODE.

I'm also kinda frustrated because I've pulled apparently my intercostal muscle again a few weeks back.  The muscle on the bottom of my rib.  I actually was in the ER with it a few years ago because its disturbing how painful it is - & with it being so close to vital organs, like liver, pancreas, stomach, intestines.  I worry its something worst... & then after many tests, they said its a pulled muscle.  Which is crazy.  & it took FOREVER for it to heal. Apparently whenever you breath, it pulls those muscles since they are attached to the ribs so it takes awhile to heal.

I just am a worrier by nature so concerned it is those muscles again & wondering if its something more.

But I did just have blood work done for neuropathy check up - & they tested so much... 6 tubes of blood worth - so if it was something serious, that would have shown up in that, right?  .... this is me trying to convince myself all is well.

It's just literally a PAIN. A PAINFUL PAIN so its just another thorn in my side (literally) on starting over & feeling so badly.

But, say it with me.... It will get easier.

Pressing On to a new day!!!!

I'm still around... even a little less of me (YEAH!!)

OK - it's been dark here on the blog for the past week.

I was on vacation....

YAHOOO!!!!!

We actually had plans to do some things, but life threw some other things our way & none of the to-do-list got any check marks... except one - I did get to clean my closet. 

oh well.  I still didn't have to go into work.  Still a win win.

But while on vacation, we also got to celebrate our 20 year anniversary.

Proof that I CAN get a little waist
... I'll get there again...

2 decades.  That blows my mind.

It has gone so fast...

On the fitness front, I decided to just take the week off from working out.  My knee is in such extreme pain discomfort that I thought it would be good for it anyways & heck, its vacation.  Who wants to worry about working out on vacation?

OK... all you people that find gyms when you travel on vacation? I applaud you. I've learned that is not me. I dont even want to work out in my own home where its convenient when I'm on vacation.

Blame the knee.

Always blame the knee in my case.

& on the nutrition front, I knew I didn't want to miss any opportunity to enjoy life.  Like, on our anniversary, yes, I did have some carrot cake. Not much - I kept the reigns in my hand - but I did enjoy life a little more then I usually do.

It was as good as it looked.... amazing!

& then at the end of the week, I thought, let's see the damage.  Let me weigh in.

I expected to see a little bit of a gain on the scale with no working out - with the nutrition not being spot on...

& then got on the scale to see that I reached the 30 lb mark

WHAT?!?!?!?!?

YES YES YES YES YES YES

Talk about a feeling of happiness!

I don't think there is anything better then expecting the number on the scale to go up & seeing it drop - 2.5 lbs at that for the week!

I will say, while I did eat a little more then I probably usually do, I did stay very aware of what I was eating - I did stay below my calories for the day.  Yes, even on the days I had the carrot cake...

& apparently, it still worked out - even with the exercise being on hold.

That's so encouraging to me...

gives me an extra boost to really watch my food more then anything.

But I have to say, I was pretty dang happy to put on my workout clothes yesterday & get back to it.

& yes, my knee still wasn't happy about working out, but I'm taking it slow - knowing that any extra strength training is only going to help my knee... & keep that number going down even more.

{DL} Always something to work....

I had great intentions.

The weather was beautiful & calling me to just be outside.

I sent a text to a friend & asked if she wanted to go walking.  I mean, I know I'm in trouble with my knee & thought walking is a good option - running it out, but talking with a friend who is so great at distracting me with great conversations is what I needed.

& then I stopped at the bank on the way home...

& came across the parking lot & it was like my knee raised the white flag...

Exactly how my knee did

I literally stood in the middle of where the cars were driving & gasped with pain.

Something didn't feel right.

I basically had to limp in a Hunchback fashion to get to my car.

I got home & wrapped up my knee & then text my friend back to let her know that walking wasn't even an option.

But I had to work out... I've learned about myself that if I don't work out, I panic.

That may be the definition of addiction - but that's ok when it comes to healthy things - right? ...that could be a whole other post.

So I decided to put in my video that concentrates on core...

Abs don't require knees - right?

Actually, some parts of it did - It required being on hands & knees & I just doubled up a towel & put under my bad knee.  It's like that soft spot on the knee is the worst pain.  Yep - this is new.

& I didn't stay in that position long.

I'm not going to push it.

But I did get to workout ... my abs anyways... I'll take what I can get for now.

Stupid knee.

{DL} New knee pain.... but at least it was pretty out

Just when you think things are going well.

I've been making better times - building up a good endurance on running - keeping my  heartrate at a good level & not huffing & puffing - actually enjoying running lately...

... & then it happens ... all over again.

Knee pain.

I'm used to it.

I've had it my whole life - know I'll always have it - but this is a new knee pain.

& its getting bad. Like, I am limping kinda bad.

I'm trying not to get discouraged because I know the routine.  Rest, ice, keep it up. 

Been there ... done that... many times.

I'm also trying to keep my attitude in check knowing that it will heal up.  Time is what it takes.

I'm just bummed thinking that I'm going to miss out on this beautiful fall weather to run in. This is only one time a year... who wants to miss it.

I pushed it last night when I went for another run.

I forgot I had my glasses on my head till half way through my run....

I ended up having to brace up both knees & it actually isn't enough. I need a full knee brace with the pain in my left leg right now... sigh....

Ricky keeps getting on me to just STOP for now.... but I don't wanna. 

Yes, I'm great at throwing 2 yr old tantrums....

I may just keep doing my strength training videos & enjoy the weather with nice relaxing walks.  That counts as something - right?

How do you not go running with colors like this around you?

 

Anyone else struggle with constant knee pain?

 

Any tips on running with knee pain?

I just cant make myself like it....

Oh gosh y'all...

I tried...

once again.

What in the world am I talking about?

Piyo

Except this body has a bad shoulder & I will basically cry in extreme pain doing this move

The amazing workout program that I see a lot of people talking about - the workout that combines Pilates & Yoga.

First, let me once again reinforce my struggle with Yoga.

I just can't make myself like it.

I WANT to like it.

I know my body needs to stretch & I know I have kinks I need to work out.

But with this stupid sucky bicep tendonitis, it totally kills me to do hold all my weight on my arms to do these holds ... & I can't handle the repetitive sun salutations over & over. 

Just punch me in the face instead.

I will say, I do like Pilates. I like the ab work on that.  Strong core - I'm all about that.

So yesterday, I found a hybrid sheet that combines T25 with Piyo & thought, this may be something I need to challenge myself with.  Get the cardio of T25 & then try the full body workout of Piyo.... I printed out the schedule, pinned it to my cork board & put in the first DVD that started with Piyo Sweat.

I was 15 minutes in & I was MISERABLE!!!

I even said out loud, "I cant make myself do this anymore"... & popped it out & put in P90X3

(I also found a hybrid of P90X3 & T25)

I don't feel like I'm giving up on a workout - I just know its not for me.

Just like I want the world to love kickboxing... not everyone is going to love it.

It's good to see there are options for everyone out there - right? 

Not everything is black & white... no one is going to agree on everything

I just know I don't want to be bored out of my mind & making my BT any worse then it already is...

Piyo - back into the back of the cabinet you shall go...

{DL} A feel good run with thanks to Spotify

It really feels like Fall y'all...

& I'm loving every minute of it.

I was going to do some yoga on Friday but got home from a photography consult meeting & it was rainy & gloomy & I was just like, nah... count it as a rest day.

So when I got up on Saturday, the hubs was working, I knew it was time to get in that workout & enjoy this fresh air.

It's the kind of weather that you sweat, but don't even feel it because the cool fall breeze is constantly blowing on you keeping you at the perfect temperature.

Hello no make up face

The cool thing that I'm loving right now really is Spotify.  I have been playing around with it & finding that the pace of 160 BPM keeps me going as a 'faster' pace & keeps me going where I want don't want to stop.

I've been doing runs at 3 minute runs/2 minute walks.... at this BPM, I have been keeping it at 4 minute runs with 1 minute walk... & doing great

... & even at one point, I did a 10 minute run & didn't want to stop, but knew my knee needed a little break.

LOOK AT ME!

I'm giving all credit to the fall air.

If it was 95 degrees with humidity, I'm sure none of this would apply - Spotify or not.

& when it comes to commercials on Spotify, I keep trying to keep the same pace, only to have the music come back & find that I instantly dropped down.

I may have to pay for a subscription so I don't have to deal with commercials.

The rest of the weekend was filled up with spending time with my twin nieces... love them.
... getting lots of really bad coffee... UGH!
... buying a new washing machine... thanks old one for just konking on me.
... living on Mexican food... could do it everyday
... catching up on my DVR shows.... what did we do before DVR?
... & never wanting to come inside with all this cool weather.

How was your weekend?

 

Did you get in a run or some other workout?

 

Do you like music to set your pace?

 

Is it feeling like Fall to you?

{DL} Kicking it up

09/23/15 - Wednesday

 

I have to admit, I was pretty much walking on air most of the morning after I found that number on the scale dropping more then I expected.

 

So I celebrated with 3 donuts.

 

 

NOOOO... Kidding... Never!

 

It was a fun day though to see the world celebrate the first day of Fall.

I don't think I see any other season with so much fanfare happening.

All the pictures of trees & vests & Starbucks fancy cups.

I'm down with this.

 

I went & had my usual Wednesday lunch date with my hubs.

It's funny because when I walk into that Subway, they don't even ask - they just pull out the wheat flatbread & start warming up the veggie patty.

 

its like Cheers - only healthier.

 

I took clothes with me to work because I was going to a class right when I jetted outta this prison.

 

Where was I headed?

My friend was teaching a free Turbo Kick class & I wanted tocheck it out.

After all, I do love my kickboxing classes.

 

& she was offering this one for free.

FREE!!!

How do you not take advantage of free?

 

 

I love this lady too - she was my former Jazzercise instructor - she is an amazing massage therapist - she's actually MY Beachbody coach & she is just everything special in one little package. She has the best outlook on life & encouragement & positivity. 

 

I want to be her when I grow up - even though I think I'm a year older then her :)

 

The class was interesting.

It wasn't like my Les Mills or regular kick boxing.

It was more like aerobics with 'aerobic' type kickboxing in it.

 

You gotta remember - I have my black belt - I'm serious punches & kicks.

 

So while it wasn't exactly what I was expecting, it was still definitely a calorie burn.

& a sweat fest.

 

& it was great when I got home & my workout was done for the day.

I could go straight into making dinner or cleaning the house.

 

Actually what happened was I went & played with the dog.

 

I'm sweaty & I wore out Harvey Dent... a good day!

 

Life is good.

 

25 lbs DOWN!!!!!

Y'all - I can't even believe it!

I went to weigh in this week & didn't expect but a pound or a pound & a half... & gasped when I saw that I had jumped a few pounds down!

& it officially puts me at 25 lbs down.

I even got off & got back on the scale... 3 times... because I didn't believe it.

I think that's like the equivalent of taking 20 pregnancy tests because you don't believe all the other ones you've peed on.

Luckily, I didn't have to pee on the scale... though I almost did with excitement!

So my journey continues....25 lbs down - 35-40 still to go!  I can do it!

Now onto life for the my Tuesday.

I went out at lunch yesterday to go to Kroger.  They have an awesome salad bar & I was excited about getting a good salad & going to the park to enjoy it on a beautiful day.... except I got to Kroger & the lights were off the salad bar & every container empty.  They didn't open it for the day.

DANGGGGGGG IT!

So I ended up just grabbing a quick snack thing they had & huffed & puffed the whole time

.... it really was more filling then I thought it would be...

I got home & want to switch up the running with a lot of cross training - I'm learning how much this helps my body tone up... so I went back to my T25 Speed 1.0 for the night.

let me tell you - I am not usually that much of a sweater....

I was DRIPPING sweat.



apparently my hair was out of control from this workout too

I forgot how much Shaun T makes me feel like I am the biggest wimp in the world...

Though this time, I did pretty dang awesome on the burpee part.

Burpees - I will win!  Mark my words!

I was ready for a shower immediately after this.... I couldn't even begin to think about making dinner.  The hubs said he could wait a little longer for dinner so it worked out well.

I ended up making some new veggie burgers my grocery's natural food section has - OH MY GOSH - I don't even know the name of them but they are amazing.  There are only 2 in the package for like $4.00 - they are made from mainly sweet potatoes & everything else natural. THEY ARE SPECTACULAR.  I'll find out the name of them...

But it was just the best dinner to fill up after sweating off my butt...

A really good Tuesday!

What was the best thing that happened to you yesterday?

{Daily Life} Where's my Hogwarts letter?

So, I've been missing this blog...

I've been mainly posting about my weeks in one post & have loved linking up in the Weekly Wrap up - but then find myself cramming all my stuff in one long post & leaving stuff out so its not TOO long.... no one wants to be that annoying long post person... & then I'm kinda blank through the week.

So I think I'm going back to some Daily Life posts... take a work out one by one...

I don't like being silent in the blog world. Silence doesn't look good on me.

So here's last week's workout - I'll just leave it at that...

Safe to say I kicked butt
... & my hand writing isn't great when writing on a vertical area :)

I've loved getting in the running lately... its all thanks to the beautiful weather we've been having. It's been A-MAZ-ING!  Fall at its finest. 

let it last Lord.

But yesterday was even more exciting because something came in the mail for me...

& no, sadly it wasn't my Hogwarts letter...

but it was my medal for my first Hogwarts Running Club race.

Never heard of that?  I hadn't either until a friend turned me onto it.

Go here... just go here....  http://www.hogwartsrunningclub.org/

They have another race coming up with an even COOLER medal.

I am a Harry Potter NERD so this is just up my alley. 

& apparently I'm not alone.  There are all kinds of Potter nerds out there.

& to tell you how much of a nerd I am, when you register, they ask what house you are in.  So I go online & take like every Harry Potter test there is on the internet - & all of them except for one, said I am a Hufflepuff. 

It's a good thing I like yellow

But this past race for the month was 9 3/4K ... how fun is that?  & you could do it all at once or break it up.  Since I had done 12.46 miles last week, I felt like I earned this medal.

Look at the detail of the back of the medal!

& was so giddy about putting this sticker on my car... right next to my 13.1

I actually kinda am in love with this sticker.  I drive in pride now.

Do you love Harry Potter?

 

What house would you belong to?

{Daily Life} Encouragement matters....

My day started with a step on the scale....

& down another pound! YAHOO!!!!! 

I'm at 15 lbs total now... & I'm trying to set a goal now for my 44th birthday in December. 

I'd love to ring in another year of life at a goal weight.

_________

I rode home in the pouring rain but when I got home, the rain had stopped & the hot temps seemed to have washed away.

Perfect - it was my C25K day ... & I was totally taking advantage of the weather & going to get out on the road for my run.

Me when I get to run outside
.... & who ever gets tired of the Phoebe Run?...
Answer is NO ONE!!

As much as I love my treadmill, I'm finding that when I have to run for long spurts of time, I like the road - just because I can change my pace so much easier.  On the treadmill, it stays the same - making it easy at times, hard at others. 

The Hubs said, 'just change the speed on the treadmill' & I told him I'd constantly be going up & down the whole time & that's just irritating... I don't want to have to think about it.

So now I'm Team Road ...

I switch back & forth between Team Road & Team Treadmill all the time. 
When the heat comes back in - I'll totally be Team Treadmill again... guaranteed.

But I got out on the road, started up my watch & then BAM!

Remember that nice weather I talked about?  I forgot that after rain, usually comes the humidity.

Oh well - I reminded myself that sweating is a good thing... & then was mad I didn't think to take a bottle water with me.

Suck it up buttercup - its only 30 minutes.

So I'm just on week 4 of C25K - still enjoying the slow transition back into running.

& this week, has it at 3 minutes run, 90 second walk, 5 minutes run, 2 minute walk - repeat...

OK - even when I ran half marathons, I never ran 5 minutes straight.
I always did the run/walk method of usually 2.5 minutes run/2.5 minutes walk - or even a 3 minute run/ 2 minute walk...

my body ain't used to continuous running.

& Monday, when I started into week 4, I was like, UGH! This is tough.

Do you know last night - I felt like a BEAST!  Made it through the whole thing - no problem.  Even ran further then it said just because I was determined to get to 2 miles.  Every night has been around 1.75 - 1.85 every night doing C25K

I wanted the 2 mile mark on my watch so badly...

GOT IT!

& still enjoyed it.

& here's the thing that I have found starting over during the C25K... I love that runners who do 2-3 miles as a shake out or warm up, they are just as encouraging to me as if I did their workouts of double digit miles.

Runners are the most encouraging group of people I know... truly...

I think runners just are proud of people moving - no matter how slow - no matter how far. 

I love that.

I used to be really embarrassed about the low mileage in a week or a day...
but I don't feel that way anymore.

Even if I got out & slow crawled for 30 minutes & made it a quarter of a mile - I guarantee there would be some runner out there that would still tell me "good job"... that's the best feeling in the world.

Encouragement matters.

You all that take the time to visit my blog & watch me go up & down on the running roller coaster - you all have been encouragement to me.... I am thankful for you most of all. You hear my personal stories.  I read yours. 

I just wanted to try & encourage you all - you speedy runners you :)

I finished up my run with a bit of pride feeling like I'm making great progress... & wanting to re-think my runs.  Maybe the next race will be 5 minute runs / 2 minute walks... maybe I'll make my dream race goal... someday.

How was your day?

I laced up running shoes yesterday....

What day is it... where am I.... what time is it?

I've been so busy I am just sorta lost in my days. 

Life has been trucking on with all things busy - photo sessions, chores to be done, editing, house cleaning - or attempting of house cleaning, youth ministry planning, & of course, enjoying this break in summer we've been having.  It's been glorious.

All that to say I'm still here, though not posting regularly.

Some updates:

* Still in Round 2 of the 21 Day fix & I lost another 3 lbs last week. Wh-WH-WHAT???!!? ... I'm at a total of 8 lbs & feel like I can move mountains now.  How stupid is that?  I know me. I can easily gain 8 lbs back at a drop of a hat... but I'm still very aware of my nutrition now & I think that's key.

Me on the scale this week

* I can't believe its been a month since I've had any chips or any chocolate. I seriously would have a York Peppermint Patty every evening after dinner.  I have had NONE.  Ricky told me, "That shows me you can do ANYTHING!"... anything?  Probably not.  I mean, I can't run for President & win... but it does show I have more self control then I thought I had.

* (I miss my York Peppermints)

* I laced up running shoes last night!  I know - I've done 2 5k's in less then 2 weeks, but I am trying to work running back into my work out plan, so last night I started the C25K plan again.  I'm just going for movement with a set plan.  Not really a goal of anything.  I just know I am getting bored with the 21 Day Fix videos over 4 weeks so I'm going to switch it up & try to run on 3 days & do the videos on 3 days... a little bit of the best of both worlds.

* Truth - I just want to get out of Leg Day on those videos. HATE THEM.  I think they are the cause of my quad issues now with burning & pulling sensation.

* I could feel my low back & Bicep tendon in my shoulder ache within the first 10 minutes of being back on the treadmill.  I guess its always going to be an issue.... sigh...

BUT I PRESS ON!!!!!

Give me a quick update on what's going on in your life!

{Daily Life} Concrete Smoothies, Plus Size Models & Saving $7.00

May 20, 2015 / Wednesday

First, can we stop & recognize the date.  5/20/15 ... I have a thing for the number 5 so days like that just make me happy.  I am a certified number nerd.  #truth

Morning

Started my day off with a smoothie.  I have run out of spinach to make all my smoothies look like they are uber healthy - but I loaded up on the frozen blueberries. 

Fun fact - blueberries are supposed to be good for inflammation.  My whole body is an inflamed mess.

But I also have been doing good at freezing my bananas for my smoothies to make them a little thicker.

With a frozen banana & frozen blueberries... I thought my Nutribullet was going to explode.  I seriously think I smelled fire getting ready to happen.  But it was yummy & felt like a milk shake.

I probably could have done the Dairy Queen Blizzard test & turned it upside down & it wouldn't have budged.

Side Note - I've never had anyone from Dairy Queen actually turn it upside down for me.  I've also only bought maybe 2 blizzards my whole life.

Afternoon

Had my usual Subway at lunch... Lunch date.  Every Wednesday, I meet up with my hubs for a standing lunch date.  Ahhhh....

After work, I headed to the grocery.  I say it every time. It's EXPENSIVE to eat healthy.  I'm not even joking when I say, I don't get out of the first aisle (which is produce & the health food area) where my basket isn't full & already is at LEAST $75.00 ...

I was so happy though that I remembered to load up my grocery card with the digital coupons..... PLUS, I had a $7.00 off coupon that I got on my last grocery trip. They felt sorry for all the money I drop.  When my bill came up to $71.00 for the trip, I felt like I wont the lottery.  Food ain't cheap.

I did come out with a Kombucha to see if it would help my nausea that is STILL killing me.  I figured the probiotics PLUS Ginger would have to help.  It actually did too... though I woke up in the middle of the night nauseated all over again... sigh...

 

 

Evening

I got in my Les Mills workout... I can't believe tonight is the LAST ONE in the series!  That 9 weeks went really fast!!!

My legs felt a little bit better too.  Still shaky & weak, but it was better.

I'm making a subconscious choice to get some protein in at least 30 minutes after I work out. I even bought some Protein Plus juice things to drink a little after I work out.  I totally don't do it right when I work out & think about refueling the body properly.

I'm just like, give me chocolate.

We'll see if it helps.

& then I just worked on my Bible Journal & watched all the news of the new Plus Size model that is popping up everywhere.  Love seeing someone strut their stuff no matter their size.... interesting to hear all the comments.  On TV, every one seems so supportive which is awesome, but man, get online & hear the comments pour out at what they think she really looks like.  I guess people feel more free to speak behind a screen. I think these are the same people who are just buttheads in real life anyways.



Do your thang girl!!!!

I'm just glad to see someone besides a stick-like-figure on the cover of a magazine.

Those girls only make me sad that I'll never have a thigh gap.

I ended my night watching Survivor & cheering on the winner.

Easy-peasy-day....

Almost to the weekend!!!!

"Ordinary" posts begin....

Note to start off on:  I started this blog to sort of just document for me my journey in health & fitness... or striving towards it anyways.  I have found myself really trying to struggle for post 'ideas' or keeping up with the latest topics... & while I still enjoy linking up & joining in on fun ideas, I'm probably going to incorporate a few more of just "daily diary" sort of entries.  Just how my day went... what it looked like... how I felt.. what I'm worried about... what I achieved in a day. 

I'm no expert at anything really, but I know my life... so while that may be boring to some of you & some of you may want to bail out of my blog, I'm giving you a pass.  I get it... but if you are just interested in hearing my journey, my thoughts & letting me know if you relate in any way, then stick around for more 'oridinary' days...

& don't forget, my other blog (link at the top) is always full of randomness :)

Moving on...

5.19.14 - Tuesday

MORNING

I have just felt horrible this past week.  I think it started over the weekend.  Nausea has taken me over.  Not sure why.  & no, I'm not pregnant. 

Everyone always assumes pregnant. 

I always tell everyone my female factory is ready to shut down... not produce anything.

But the nausea has been RIDICULOUS... 

I had a little talk with God about it & begging Him for some relief.

AFTERNOON

It was such a beautiful day so I got out at lunch & went to the local park.

Stopped at Subway on the way & got my usual Veggie sandwich... so happy they have guacamole back.  I get that instead of honey mustard or any other dressing - its creamy enough to serve in place of any dressing.

I chowed it down & then walking a little loop around the park.  School was out so the park was full cray-cray with kids running & screaming.  Entertainment at its finest.  It made me want to run through the fountains with them.  My office would have loved me coming back soaked to the bone.

I was so tired though & wanted to stay awake till 11 to see the end of Dancing with the Stars so I thought this would be the time to get an iced coffee.  There is a little local coffee shop across the park that I've always wanted to try... this would be the day... except no...

it was closed for plumbing problems. DANG IT.

So I found a McDonalds - because there's one on every corner - & went through the line to get an iced coffee.... only it took me 20 minutes to get it.  Had me pull forward because they were out of coffee... really?  & then they forgot about me.

The manager ended up giving me a large for my troubles.  Geez.  Thanks. I don't even WANT a large. I want to stay up to 11pm -not 11am the next day.

EVENING

I got in my Les Mills 30 minute video.  & I felt like straight up weak, worn out, awful, disgusting poop.  Descriptive enough?

My legs just felt weak as anything. I felt like I couldn't get a strong kick for the life of me.

Confession:  I panic when something seems off.... so I'm all nervous wondering what is wrong with my legs & muscles.  I want to Google it so badly but know that's only going to cause a panic attack... ask me how I know. Yep, have done it too many times....

So I'm just chalking it up to working out 10 days straight, hitting my goal of over 10,000 steps every day this month... I'm pushing my quads.  That's gotta be it.  Nothing serious like WebMD would totally tell me it is.

I didn't even make dinner & ended up just eating those Natural Salted Ruffles with cheese dip.  Real healthy, huh?

But I had to take Harvey to the vet & no time to eat anything that was worth warming up. 

I ended up getting home & just watched my Dancing with the Stars finale... with my legs still feeling shaky & weak... & hungry....

& then I couldn't fall asleep.  Thanks iced coffee.

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